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When you're lonely,

I'll be lonely too.

There’s something heroic about the way my fans operate their cameras. So preciesely and intricately, so proudly, and so methodically. Like Kings writing the history of their people.

Its their prolific nature that both creates and procures what will late be percieved as the “kingdom.” So, the real truth about lady gaga fans lies in this sentiment: They are Kings. They are the queens. They write the hisory of the kingdom, while I am something of a devoted Jester.

It is in the theory of perception that we have established our bond. Or, the lie, I should say, for which we kill. We are nothing without our image. Without our projection. Without the spiritual hologram of who we percieve ourselves to be, or to become rather, in the future.

When you’re lonely,

I’ll be lonely too.

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Chin up girl - show it in your strut. Sing, sing, sing at the top of your lungs.

So much is going on right now. I don't even know where to begin. I moved to Anaheim now and I am finally going back to school officially. I am finally moving along to a good place in my life.

Uhhhh I love Glee?! I have no idea what else to say lmfao.

So what do you guys wanna know? How are things?

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Seven years, wow. It's hard to stop and think that its been nearly a decade since we lost her. It all is still so clear to me. It's like rewinding a movie and playing it back over and over again. I've told the story so many times that I keep hoping the next time I tell it, it will be fiction and part of some over dramatized movie script I'm trying to sell.

But it's the truth. Painful, hard to swallow, stinging truth and the fact of the matter is...she's not coming back.

She was quiet if she didn't know you but you couldn't shut her up if she trusted you. She made the best jokes (often at other peoples expenses) and was far more beautiful than she let herself believe. She was a combination of Kirsten Dunst and Heather Morris and she had a laugh that I've never heard anything close to and I know now I never will. It's yet to fade from my memory and I cling to it tight because I fear someday it might fade away.

It was a humid day in may when we heard she was gone. We all honestly thought she just ran away and was in a better place. We theorized as to where she went. San Francisco was her dream, to live there and no be judged for who she was or who she wanted to be. She loved random bits of musical theaters, writing poetry and Katie Holmes (pre Tom Cruise) and deep down just wanted to find herself. She had a shit family life and nothing but dreams despite being manic depressive. Everyone blamed her depression for why she ran away but no one ever stopped to listen to her either.

We went to school and church together and we sat, just the two of us at most church functions, being blasphemous and talking about where we wanted to go in life. She'd make these little snowflakes out of paper and write the most obscene things on them. Its how we dubbed her snowflake and she was pale like snow white so it just seemed fitting for her.

In February 2003 they found remains at the bottom of a cliff in Palos Verdes. I remember that day clearly, and I remember waking up and walking into the living room and my Mom couldn't even look at me. My mother is normal a very jovial woman who seriously wakes up every morning and bakes and has tea ready. There was no water boiling and the kitchen wasn't filled with the warmth it usually was. Everything seemed cold and dark.

"They found some remains up past where Marineland used to be."

My heart stopped. I could tell in the tone of her voice that this was going to lead into something far worse.

"They think it may be Sara."

The denial came first, as suspected. "She's in San Francisco." Hell, she was doing high kicks on Broadway, I had every excuse as to why it COULDN'T be my snowflake.

Mom told me they didn't know for sure yet and we lit a candle of St. Jude and hoped for the best.

A few days prior to this, practically out of nowhere, I had a dream about her. They came to be less and less over the course of eight months she was missing. In the dream I'd somehow been forced to go grocery shopping with a group of girls I used to go to church with, uptight overzealous girls who tried to make Snowflake and I conform to their standards of good and evil. By church standards she and I were going to hell in a handbasket...we were okay with that.

In the dream I made it through the teeth grindingly obnoxious time with the girls when they revealed they had someone with them now who wanted to see me. The girls and mentors parted and there she was, she smiled at me and we gave each other a hug before she launched and assault of playful banter and punched me in the arm. She told me she was in a better place and things were alright and to stop worrying about her.

I remember telling my Mom about the dream and those few days after she told me about the remains.

I remember that it seemed like forever to get the dental record results. I remember running millions of scenarios in my head and none of them ever made it out to be her. I felt selfish for wishing it was another person, that someone elses family and friends had to experience loss but...

It was her.

She died May of 2002. Her body lay on salty shell covered rocks for eight months under our noses and she died alone.

No one knows for sure what happened, those of us who actually stopped and listened to her, those of us who heard her heart suspected foul play but he case was quickly swept under the rug and nowadays in San Pedro, no one says much about the 17 year old who went missing. Those of us who do speak of her will never stop, we will never forget her and never stop dreaming of who she could grow to be.

We love you, Sara Ashley. ALWAYS. In your spirit I still keep fighting for my own dreams, and someday I will make you proud.

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THERE IS NO ONE FROM TWILIGHT TAKEN YET. Any fandoms welcome. Right now we have Veronica Mars, House, Transformers, Heroes, The OC and LOST characters taken. Come check it out.


On the dawn of a late fall morning in 2009, a virus was released upon New York City. Within days, individuals developed a sickness that eventually lead to death; and then...the bodies began to rise.

Those not afflicted or seemingly immune to the virus took refuge in a place that seemed like their only sanctuary. A Starmart Superstore. There they found food, weapons and shelter [not to mention those lovely rolled back prices].

They must band together to keep the afflicted out and to stay alive. Will you join or fall behind?

Welcome to Starmart, where you're a star no matter who you are!


Welcome to the Revenant Panfandom RPG. Here you can portray characters from any fandom. Make alliances, fall in love, find your sworn enemies and kill some zombies. Will you fight for those left? Or will you live the rest of your life in the canned foods aisle? Every choice you make effects the other survivors. Will you decide who lives and dies?

Any and all fandoms are welcome. The virus has stripped anyone with special abilities of their powers. Therefore, you're a simple human just like the rest of us, buddy.

Since we are just starting we are allowing two characters per player until we have a solid game going. Then it will be dropped to one each and we will have certain points where additional characters may be applied for.

Please view our rules before going through the application process. Good luck.

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“You have a choice. Live or die.
Every breath is a choice. Every minute is a choice.
To be or not to be.

--Chuck Palahniuk
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It's baaaaack (when a vengence ;] mwahaha) my all time favorite RP has been resurrected. IT WAS AMAZING and will be amazing again.

New York City, New York. The Big Apple, The City That Never Sleeps. So many different paces and stories, where do you fit in? Do you run a fortune 500 company, are you struggling to chase your acting dreams? Do you daydream of finding mister or misses right on top of the empire state building? It's all up to you, anything goes here...it is New York after all.

Just remember that there is a dark side to every city, a recent crimewave has brought out the sketchiest characters and the bloodthirsty strange individuals bent on revenge. Could your blind date be the next Dahmer? Only time will tell.

Submit an application HERE at our OOC community, once approved, make your way into the city and post to your hearts content. Make friends, fall in love, follow your dreams, avoid those bent on destruction. Check our character list and see what PBs are taken, then come up with your perfect character. Scan through the rules and once you are accepted, feel free to post!

When you are accepted, request to join both the OOC community and the main community.

Here's a video for the original run of it...

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♫ It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas.

Alright, alright. People have been poking and prodding me regarding what I want for Christmas so I guess I'll suck it up and post my desires.

[+] Honestly, money, those visa giftcards, etc...anything that will help with my London trip. I'm mainly using my tax return to fund it but it's what I want most right now and anything helps.
[+] Clothes & shoes. I love clothes (mainly dresses, tights and leggings) and I love shoes. I love Forever 21 and Urban Outfitters most, plus American Eagle.
[+] Anything Cobra Starship, VersaEmerge, Hey Monday, All Time Low, Panic! at the Disco and well, you should know my favorite bands. I love band merch, I live for band merch, I have entirely too much of it but if there's something I don't have you bet your biscuits I want it!

Those are all the material things I can think of, there you go.

Online and what not.

[+] help me spread the word about my Sierra community! herdevioussmirk :)
[+] Paid account/100 icons extension, plz.
[+] Graphics! Victoria Asher, Sierra Kusterbeck, Lady GaGa, Nikki Reed, Megan Fox, Olivia Wilde, etc.
[+] Fics! You can DM me for all I want fic wise.
[+] I want to rp in the Twilight verse again, as Rosalie or Jasper of course. Someone make this happen haha. I can't do it alonnnne.

There you go! This is honestly all I can think of.